Monday, October 12, 2009

In which I summarize

Hello.

My name is Annie, and I do still enjoy blogging.

The past few weeks have been a blur. College is...college!

It's been a very interesting time. It's like I have to remind myself that my identity is not what classes I'm taking or how much homework I should do before I go to sleep. My life...my life is not school. My life is hidden with Christ. My call right now? Be at school, do the work, be a light. But my identity? Daughter of the King.

It's a fight, this college life. I came fully knowing my purpose. In fact, I still know it. Jesus told me to come to this university and tell people about him. Basic, preach the gospel, 101. It's happening. I couldn't tell you all the Divine set-ups, the times the Lord's whispered something only to have it happen, the times He tells me to talk to someone and it bears fruit. He has a plan for this place, for these people, and I know it because He is acting. Friends, I go to one of the most liberal universities in the state of WA (in fact, my school is 6th on the list of prestigious schools with the least amount of Christian representation. SIXTH.) and I am having people I barely know say to me: "Can I come to church with you?" It's wild.

The work is intense, but, big surprise!, it turns out to be a teachable moment in multiple ways. Actually, I may just post a journal entry about that as its own post.

I do miss home; but I'm learning that even as I miss it and stay connected the IHOP family, I must guard my heart from day-dreaming about being back there and losing vision for why I am here.

One comment said that people would like to hear about my classes. French is going well. I'm not fluent yet, but at least I can say "J'adore Jesus." A friend was pointing out to me the other day that I never know when it might be useful to be able to share the gospel in French!

Statistics
is actually somewhat enjoyable. That's about all there is to say about that, unless you want to know something about taking a stratified sample from a population of mountain goats in Eastern Swaziland.

International Political Economy is in a victory spot at the moment. Today I handed in my first mid-term paper, written on the economic stimulus bill Congress passed this past February. I was part of a group that had to present on the Financial Crisis during these past two weeks, and I'm actually kind of thankful that I learned more than I knew before. What? You actually learn at college? CRAZY!

English is, umm, probably the most difficult class for me. It's not because of the workload, but more because it is the class where I most run into the ideologies that do not submit themselves to Christ. This is the class where I sit and think "Vanity, vanity, all is vanity." There is so much the human mind can choose to think about and dwell on, and let me tell you,fallen men philosophizing and theorizing on their own apart from the Holy Spirit is not very edifying. Today I sat in class and alternated between feeling like my blood was racing through me at triple speed and just laughing to myself, because my views are just so different. We were talking about gender roles today... Our reading was somewhat feminist and quite anti-marriage, and I had to take a break and intake a verse that is now on my list of favorites:

"An excellent wife who can find? She is far more precious than jewels. The heart of her husband trusts in her..." ~Prov. 31

Today I came out with saying that the author was wrong to assume that women from the 1950's were lying when they said they were most fulfilled by spending their lives raising their families and gave what could probably be put down as one of the theses of my life: "I honestly think raising children is one of the most important things you can do." I'm thankful for a friend from that class who, after we moved onto our next class, agreed with me about having a different view: "I know...I'm kind of scared to say that I want to be a mom." What would it take to see a change in what is taught? Salvation. That's what it would take.

It's interesting in my work to get to the point of "yeah, we do have all these problems...but Jesus is coming back and will make all the wrong things right." In a discussion about Political Economy, we were talking about how what would be the right solution doesn't actually always happen because of partisan politics. This made me think (and tweet): one day, Jesus is going to come back and be the perfect King, and rule in absolute righteousness and justice, with no politics or cynicism. I look forward to that day.

So here I am, I'm in college, and the Lord is holding me up. I'm praying for provision (my computer is not very happy), and I'm learning how to walk in my identity in the Lord, and I'm learning how to war for the purposes of the Lord in my life, and I'm learning how to hold up my shield of faith, and I'm learning how to tell people about Jesus... The list could go on and on and on of what God is doing in this season, but MAN! all of it is good.

"He put a new song in my mouth,
a song of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD."
~Psalm 40:3

6 comments:

Andrea Hope said...

I love knowing that other prayer movement people are in college! Your description reminds me so much of how last semester felt for me. It makes me (cautiously) miss school and look forward to going back next semester. :)
Grace to you!

-Andrea Amabile

Masha said...

I'm so glad! Keep it up :)

Regarding English: I had some of the same concerns, and honestly, the best you can do in future is choose classes NOT based on the subject but based on the teacher. Read reviews of the professor online, if your school has such a thing, ask around about her, even go talk to her the semester before and get a feel who she is. There are plenty of wonderful teachers who just want to read good books with you without drumming any sort of ideology into your head. Find them!

Sarah said...

I loved reading this update! You are pleasing the Lord in your steadfast faith, and He will reap a harvest through you! I think I told you that I met the Lord at PLU because of the faithful testimony of solid believers on campus simply living lives that displayed their love for Jesus. Little things (exactly like someone speaking up in class to sincerely make a counterpoint to liberal assumptions) made huge impacts on me as the Lord began to really open my eyes to see Him.
Keep going! Keep loving Jesus like you do and letting others see you do it. I can't wait to see what He does!

Love or Nothing said...

Glad it's going well! I was a Lit major, so I know all about the difficult readings and topics that come up in English classes. Most of it you aren't going to agree with at all, ever. But it does teach you a lot about world views and the opinions of your classmates.. and everything can open a door. :) happy studying!!

Kacie said...

annie, I'm proud of you. You know I went to college in a very "comfortable" Christian environment, but my time in US public high school was very much like this - moving from a place I love to place that was very very far from God.

You are brave and strong... in Him of course! I pray that others see the light of Christ in you and that our great God chooses to use you to show them Himself.

Suz said...

Anniebugs, many WILL see and fear and put their trust in the LORD, and you and I will sing His praise extra loud, maybe in concert black!!! Go...LOGGERS!!!